It's preposterous how I see people using words that are beyond their dictionary. I mean, just saying~ And then there are people who make such beautiful and factual phrases sound so hmm, gross. I mean mostly cos you are very ah lian in your mannerism so the way it comes out, totally ruined. Actually I'm just targeting an individual here so don't be offended, friends. Do you even know how to pronounce half the words you use, correctly? Ney, I doubt so. Do you even know the actually meaning of the word? Yeah, maybe I can give you credit on this one. You probably checked the dictionary before posting it out online.
Felling kinda bitchy today, I haven had a bitchy post in a while, I think? But anyway, it's ridiculous how self absorbed some people can get. I mean, why can't I be the one who takes people for granted instead of being taken for granted? Why can't I be the one who says no and gets away with it instead of the one who has to worry about feeling bad or guilty if I say no which eventually becomes a yes anyway. Why can't I, for once for God's sake, be the bitch in any broken heart? Oh wait I have an answer. Because I'm Valerie~ that's what I do. Hate being a Pisces really, lose out in every aspect of life, crude word for me: Loser~
Back to self absorbed people. Yeah, spare a thought for.. Anyone really, anyone but yourself. Yeah I know it's the holidays but really, I don't owe you anything. I make time for you and you give me really absurd reasons to play me out. Really, you can do better than that. What's so difficult in saying something like "I don't feel like meeting today." I mean if it's me, yeah I'll prolly come up with a lame excuse so I won't break your heart. But you? I see no difficulties at all. I know I'm not exactly an angel but, I'm definitely not the kind who will leave you to die if I knew you were going to, unless of course I hate you..
Anyway, as usual I have been watching Lie To Me and a few chick flicks. But I must say season 3 is really, quite bad. I fall asleep halfway, I don't follow and I'm really quite uninterested. Anyway, have I mentioned? I am making a list of wants from my mom who is going to Taiwan without me. ): I am gonna make sure I still get my worth of Taiwan, starting with maybe a porter bag. But..... She prolly wouldn't be able to find porter, or maybe identify one even if it was right in front of her face. I think this slow/blur/clumsiness/retardation runs in the family, from my mom. Hahaha no joke. And I'm about done with ALL the movies in my laptop. And that's quite a lot you know? Okay, with the exception of 3 seasons of Chuck I intend to devour slowly. I'm such a couch potato really. Eh, I'm damn good at digressing and my flow of ideas is in a mess and it's all chopped up. That's cos I'm a mess.. My brain functions the way I am, physically.
Okay, gonna learn how to operate the washing machine so I will not have to die in the 10 days I'm alone. I really hate the way I speak and the way I look. I think I need a make over and I need to rearrange my wardrobe for the, 10th time since february. No exaggeration there really.
Me is couch potato #1, I have becomes a balls, round potatoes. I eats so much that I thinks I gains 2kg(already being practical) every days. I does this every days, slept until noons wake ups eats then lies in beds and fiddles with this apples and then watches movies and then baths BATHS NOT BATHE then eats then watches movies and eat and do nothings. You hurts me. (Sorry I can't help it) Can't stand myself anymore.
Been too lazy for my liking. Want to need to do something productive. Starting from Zhiyi's article! Hahaha I have nothing to do anyway, might as well help this poor girl.. So much work in Uni! Haiyo. Okok I wanna go.. EAT AGAINS?! Yes.. Kthxbai~
(Amazing how my mood changes in the length of the time I use to compose a post. And how much shit I write here. Why do you waste your time reading? I am fucked)
AND I JUST REMEMBERED MY TITLE IS INNOCENCE BECAUSE I WANTED TO BLOG ABOUT how I just remembered when we were younger and we had to do eggshell painting for art lessons, how my grandma would waste a dozen eggs for me because I wanted the shells. And in order not to crack the egg into half, she would make a hole using chopsticks so that the shell still maintains. I love my grandma to bits, really. She really is the epitome of true love to me. No matter how fucked up I turned out to be, she still loved me the best. I love you Mama.
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